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Finals going to end soon.. with my last paper MORAL.. *sigh*
very sien.. == lol.. hopefully my BM skills did not degrade until d lecturer dunno wat i’m writing.. bwahahah.. =p

hmm.. so far i’ve pass 1 subj and others are still pending.. hopefully i could pass all.. coz there’s tis subj called GENETICS.. i think our lecturer trying to make all of us to sit for supplementary paper.. the more the merrier.. lol.. tough like hell.. *fingers cross*
Wish all my friends out thr all d bet n good luck o.. hope that everyone could pass tis subj!

There’s an interesting chinese email here that i would like to share.. quite interesting.. ^^

一大早，我跳上一部計程車，要去台北郊區做企業內訓。 

因正好是尖峰時刻，沒多久車子就卡在車陣中，此時前座的司機 先生開始不耐地嘆起氣來。 
隨口和他聊了起來：「最近生意好嗎？」 
後照鏡的臉垮了下來，聲音臭臭的：「有什麼好？到處都不景氣，你想我們計程車生意會好嗎？每天十幾個時，也賺不到什麼錢，真是氣人！」 
嗯，顯然這不是個好話題，換個主題好了，我想，於是我說：「不過還好你的車很大很寬敞，即便是塞車，也讓人覺得很舒服 ?」 
他打斷了我的話，聲音激動了起來：「舒服個鬼！不信你來每天坐 12 個小時看看，看你還會不會覺得舒服！？」 
接著他的話匣子開了，抱怨政府無能、社會不公，所以人民無望。 
我只能安靜地聽，一點兒插嘴的機會也沒。 

兩天後同一時間，我再一次跳上了計程車，再一次地要去郊區同一家企業做訓練，然而這一次，卻開啟了迥然不同的經驗。

一上車，一張笑容可掬的臉龐轉了過來，伴隨的是輕快愉悅的聲音：「你好，請問要去哪 ? 堙H 」 
真是難得的親切，我心中有些訝異，隨即告訴了他目的地。 
他笑了笑：「好，沒問題！」 
然而走沒兩步，車子又在車陣中動彈不得了起來。
前座的 司機 先生手握方向盤，開始輕鬆地吹起口哨哼起歌來，顯然今天心情不錯。 

於是我問：「看來你今天心情很好嘛！」
他笑得露出了牙齒：「我每天都是這樣啊，每天心情都很好。」 
「為什麼呢？」我問：「大家不都說景氣差，工作時間長，收入都不理想嗎？」 
司機先生說：「沒錯，我也有家有小孩要養，所以開車時間也跟著拉長為 12 個小時。 
不過，日子還是很開心過的，我有個祕密 ?」 

他停頓了一下：「說出來先生你別生氣，好嗎？」 

當然好，只要是快樂的祕密，我這個念過心理學的都感興趣。

他說：「我總是換個角度來想事情。例如，我覺得出來開車，其實是客人付錢請我出來玩。像今天一早，我就碰到像你這樣的先生，花錢請我跟你到陽明山去玩，這不是很好嗎？等下到了陽明山，你去辦你的事，而現在是花季，我就正好可以順道賞賞花，抽根菸再走啦！」

他繼續說：「像前幾天哦，有一對情侶去淡水看夕陽，他們下車後，我也下來喝碗魚丸湯，擠在他們旁邊看看夕陽才走，反正來都來了嘛，更何況還有人付錢呢？」
漂亮！多精采的一個祕密！ 

我突然意識到自己有多幸運，一早就有這份榮幸，跟前座的 EQ 高手同車出遊，真是棒極了。 
又能坐車，心情又開心，這樣的服務有多難得，我決定跟這位 司機 先生要電話，以後再邀他一起出遊。 
接過他名片的同時，他的手機鈴聲正好響起，有位老客人要去機場，原來喜歡他的不只我一位，相信這位 EQ高手的工作態度，不但替他贏得好心情，也必定帶進許多生意。 

快樂其實是一種習慣 

心理學家發現，快樂其實是一種習慣，不論環境怎麼變， EQ 高手的快樂決心是不會改變的。 

當我們能換一種心態去看待自己的工作，並帶著遊戲般的愉快心情面對工作，你會發覺自己的內在能量強大許多，抗壓應變的功力也因此大為增進，而這，也正是貫徹快樂決心的漂亮做法。

我自己就常覺得，工作其實是一種偽裝，讓我有很好的藉口及機會，能因著演講及各種活動，去認識許許多多有趣精彩的人，這不是很過癮嗎？（更何況，往往還有人付錢呢！）。

Now it’s really the time for me to listen to "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter.. coz my hp just got stolen by a jerk at the KTM KL central station. Aihhzzz… cant believe it!!!

KTM always got those foreign workers taking it everyday.. KTM as usual packed with lotsa ppl but actually there’s still spaces inside.. just don’t understand why those passengers don’t stand further in.. all cramped near the entrance.. i gotta like squeeze through the sea of humans to get a place near the door step.. =="

There’s this dark complexion guy.. not sure whether he’s an indian or wat.. but surely not local.. I get on to the train at Mid Valley after singing practice.. and then when going back, around 6p.m., there were lots of ppl taking KTM from mv heading to Rawang line. I went from 1 door to the next cause there were just too many people try to get on the train!

Finally, just right before the train closes its doors, i manage to get in.. N the guy standing beside me was same as me.. cramped like sardines..  The next stop..  KL central..  Once the door open,  i felt my pocket  loose a little (as my hp was there)
, and the guy standing right beside me ran out in lightning speed.. i couldn’t do anything but just stare at him running down the hallway.. haihzzz.. n dat’s how my hp got stolen!!! sad case~~~~

Damn.. n i called to bind my line.. now i have to spend extra for a new hp.. >< tot that i could save up for the trip.. luckily i got ptptn loan to help me out a little.. ==

Anyway, planning for a trip from KL–Teluk Intan–Parit Buntar–Penang–Langkawi
with my friends!! looking forward to it!!!!! I’ve never try playing paint ball before.. this will be an interesting trip!! MOst importantly.. cant wait to see my honey~~ hehe.. miss ya lots.. ^^

That’s all for now.. hopefully i don’t get any supplementary paper.. *finger crossed
Good luck to all my fellow friends too~

~~Starting a new chapter in my life~~

After so many years.. the feeling has been found… and the right guy has appeared..

I’ve never noticed this.. after a year, in d same course, same class.. we’ve been so close, so near, and yet so far.. we were strangers back then.. and gradually, we get to know each other more.. bits by bits..

From normal conversations, study group, to sms and on9 messages.. you reveal more about you to me.. as this goes on.. it has been a routine to msg each other.. and when i know i dun get annoyed by all the msgs.. n eager to send n received more.. dat’s when i noticed.. a slow but outstanding changes in me.. =p

Someone.. somehow.. creeps into my heart..

So i think.. i think hard.. and asked myself.. "is this the feeling?? the long lost, buried, somewhere in my heart, the special feeling???" i never had a confirmed answer.. until that morning.. 8/8/07
he asked for my acceptance of him n an unowned bear.. without double thinking, i accepted.. no double thoughts.. and that’s when i confirmed myself.. "Yess.. this is it!!"

A sweet romance.. i can taste the sweetness in the air.. quietly.. i smiled to myself stubbornly.. cant stop it.. cause it’s a true feeling.. ^^ indescribable..  hmm.. all i could say is, happiness filled each cell of my own..
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Again, influenza virus had beaten my immune system.. i’m sick.. flu.. ==
Throughout this sem.. i’ve lost count the times i had fallen sick.. too bz.. too stressed.. lack of rest.. that’s what my friends said to me every time i’m sick.. Well, i know it myself.. but can’t help it.. i’m too used to be bz.. haha.. thx for everyone’s concerned anywayz..

But this time, there’s someone taking care of me.. look after me.. never been this happy to fall sick =p (ok~~ i’m weird) I’m pampered by him.. ^^
And so.. i’m thinking.. after being independent for so many years.. standing  up straight alone..  Now, there’s as if a stable tree for me to depend with..  i wonder will i eventually depends on him too much later on.. lol.. hmm.. i must learn to control..
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My 20th birthday.. hehe.. my friends throw a surprise bday party!! thx ya~~
And earlier i thought no celebration for this year.. as we had tight schedule and exam on my bday.. o><o  (ooo.. n most of them saying they’re going bek to hometown n so on..)

I’ve been blind folded and taken to have a car ride.. lol.. (cheat me say bringing me to somewhere.. but ended up juz few minutes walk from where i’m staying.. hahahah..) And when i finally reached the destination, i’m being lead through a rough and unbalanced passage (a park near my place). When i get to remove the blind fold, turned out that 23 ppl appeared~! (I was really shocked that so many ppl surrounding me.. with my bday cake.. geez.. thx..) some more they ordered food catering.. (whee~ i feel all the love from u guys..) 

Presents~~ i received 2 cute little hamsters (i named them りゅうせい (ryuusei) and てんし (tenshi) which means meteor and angel ^^y) with their food supply, shampoo and etc., a huge bday card (about half of my body length), a big sized mickey cup (or should i say as bowl??? but has a handle worr..), a sweet table lamp (light intensity could be adjusted~ hehe..), a pretty n shinny pair of earrings with a ferrero rocher flower, an apple green blouse with a little classy looking flower necklace, a cute little plushie doggie + hp decoration with a bday card which lotsa effort has been put into to made it.. (love the cute pao drew in it) and the biggest present is all great friends that attended and all wishes i’ve received~~ Friends forever~~ *wink

thx a lot people~~ for every year making my birthday a special and unforgettable  one~! may everyone live a healthy and happy life, and score in exams~ *cheers ^^

**thx to my special someone~~ love ya~~

As everyone knows, i’m a member of the national choir.. On the 30th of June, the ministry juz launched the KL Music festival.. Just for 2 days of performances, last week, every night i need to went for rehearsals.. ++ n always ended damn late.. by the time i reached back wangsa by bus, it was like 12a.m. or later??!! swt..

And.. i dunno wat’s wrong with the programme manager.. i think he must must have great faith in us.. gave us 2 songs to learn on fri night n sat was already performance day.. Can u believe it????? swt…. ==" and all of us need to memorize the lyrics as well.. But luckily v still manage to memorize them in a short period of time.. although those 2 songs were not that difficult.. but seriously, for the whole week we were there for rehearsals n yet they still gave us last minute work to do.. MADnEss!!!

Tonight will be our night!! LOL… not only the national choir are performing with the National Symphony Orchestra.. several famous singers are performing too (such as Zainal Abidin n Ms. Syafinaz.. etc etc) There’s a classical piece we are to perform tonight, called March of the Toreadors, by Carmen. it is a great piece.. get to sing with the junior choir.. trust me.. the juniors are so CUUUUUUTTTTTTTTEEEEEE!!!!!!

hahahhahahha… the youngest are like 7 yrs old i think… feel like pinching them.. look so innocent.. goodie goodie… hahahha… i swear they are cute.. hehe.. and to be able to sing n perform at this young age.. they are great!^^

hopefully later u all will enjoy the concert ya my frens…. hehe…
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My friends get together already.. whew.. glad tht they are back to normal..
Hopefully history wont repeat.. *fingers crossed

Man~~ midterm’s here!! so far, biochem n cell metabolizing test 1 had over, few hours later (that will be around 3p.m.), i hav to sit for Principles of Biotech.. And now i’m still happily updating my blog.. at this wonderful time.. (it’s 6.21am now..o><o okok… i WAS studying.. until i get too bored n started to view a few fren’s blog.. muahahhah…)

Yesterday coz of the launching.. cant get to attend Fashion Night.. haihz.. after prepared for so long.. cant get to join in d fun.. kinda dissappointed though.. But anyway, i heard that it was a success.. CONGRATZ ppL~~!! and i get a lot of good feed back bout the backdrop oooo……. May lee n Ruxuan.. well done gals~~~ woohoo.. hehehe.. *show u gals my love ^^ \m/,

Now its my turn to get very very bz with reports… (coz i’m the secretary.. ><)

== aikz… i wonder how am i going to manage my time for everything i get myself into… 1st i got my studies.. next i got jap class which abt to start(14/7).. den society’s report… n also sports carnival–table tennis *i’m forced to  join d competition since UTAR FES not enuf gals representative… oh ya.. soundblender activities going to be back to normal with every week got one night of traning soon *perhaps starting next week.. haihzz… wish me luck lorr….. i’m afraid to think abt all this actually..

*p/s special thx to mark-san who turns out for the launching.. arigatou gozaimasu! ^^

Lately the weather fluctuates a lot, suddenly its a bright and sunny day, and suddenly its raining cats and dogs outside.. Lotsa people fell sick.. Well, i’m one of the unfortunate one.. Had high fever and flu together.. what a combo..

Lucky me.. i’m circled with lotsa caring friends.. all offered help.. special thanks to cody.. who fetched me to a nearby clinic.. lol.. if not for him to take all the trouble to come here.. i guess my high fever would not be cured..

Juz only took me 1 day to cure.. that’s pretty fast.. the doc didnt even gave me any antibiotic.. but i was at the temp of 38.4 degree celcius.. the doc gave me a MC.. written there "upper respiratory infection" –> that makes it sounded like i get infected by some serious desease.. lol.. hmm.. my flu still havent cured yet.. hopefully i’ll recover asap.. cuz next week i’m sitting for my midterm edi.. and i havent started my lab reports =="

Recently, some of my frens have problems.. it’s heart broken to see them dun talk to each other.. hmm.. felt helpless sometimes.. unable to match them back.. i believe that both parties did mistakes.. but i dun think this will end a relationship though.. not for that reason.. definitely not.. hope that they could take 1 step back.. think about it.. and see through it clearly.. think twice whether it’s worth to let a friendship go juz like that.. i’ll keep my fingers cross.. pray hard that they’ll be back to normal asap.. a true bond are to be tested with different obstacles.. pls dun allow this bond to be broken so easily yea my frenz.. *wink

k.. i better take a gud rest..

First of all, forive me that i wrote the title as "untitled" I got no idea what to write as the title of this entry.. lazy to think.. muahaha.. Anyway, now is 1.02a.m. .. so my brain is not functioning efficiently too.

ohh.. recently heard a news that brighthen up my day a little.. TVXQ finally is coming to Malaysia!!! (published in shin chew daily press) but the exact date haven confirm.. woohoo~~ been waiting so long.. hopefully the tickets are not too expensive o><o

Announcement to be made here.. Arts and Crafts Society is organizing FASHION NIGHT.. details: Venue: UTAR (FES) cafeteria; time: 6.30pm (not so sure bout it); date: 30th of June.. all UTAR students are welcome to join the fun as designing competition as well as modeling competition will be held together! Models will be presenting outfits from sponsored famous designers’ clothes! FIRST in UTAR (FES)!! dont missed it!! ^^ able to get the tickets at Arts and Crafts Society booth.. juz for rm5..

Japanese class has been postponed again.. so sad.. i’m eager to learn wehh~ hmm.. hopefully they dun change the time.. or else more n more students withdraw den.. i heard that only 7 ppl signed up for level 2.. =="

Arghh.. i found  out that i got 2 more reports and an assignment to rush.. -.- haihz.. juz the second week.. d lecturers sure are mad.. but so far still can cope with it la.. juz that lectures nowadays some cant get what they teaching.. guess i must catch up asap. or else i’ll be as blur as last sem..

ok.. finished summarising what i’ve been up to these days.. LOL!

back to my report and go to bed soon.. o^^o

An interesting email i received..
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$20.00

Sometimes we just need
to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started
off his seminar by

holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked,

"Who would like this
$20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going
to give this $20 to one of you

but first, let me do this.

He proceeded to crumple up
the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who
still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in
the air.

Well, he replied, "What
if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the
ground

and started to grind it into
the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled
and dirty.

"Now, who still wants
it?"

Still the hands went into
the air.

My friends, we have all learned
a very va! luable l esson.

No matter what I did to the
money, you still wanted it

because it did not decrease
in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives,

we are dropped, crumpled,
and ground into the dirt

by the decisions we make and

the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened
or

what will happen, you will
never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled
or finely creased,

you are still priceless to
those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes
not in what we do or who we know,

but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special -
Don’t EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on,
you may never know the

lives it touches, the hurting
hearts it speaks to,

or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not
your problems.

And remember: amateurs built
the ark …

professionals built the Titanic.

If God brings you to it -
He will bring you through it.
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So dont simply give up in yourself coz you woudln’t know how valueble you are to some people! ^^

Just in a blink, my new sem starts.. Now i’m doing my second year in UTAR, there’s been a little changes, coz me n my friends start to study the 1st week itself.. LOL! ok.. Next week will be the second week already.. if i count it that way.. i got like 13 weeks till my finals.. hahahhahha.. ok.. i’m mad.. =p

haihz.. didnt do well for my last sem.. sad.. sob sob.. but i expected that edi.. since i screwed 2 subjects at previous midterm.. For this sem, i’m quite happy with our lecturers.. at least all can speak fluent and correct english.. And they’re teching methods are much better than the previous year’s lecturers.. *finally .. *

hopefully i could keep it up and improve on my cgpa this sem..!

Whee~~ its been 2 weeks i’m at home.. Actually the first week of holiday i’m at setapak still (house that i rent).. hanging out with friends and had steamboat.. it was simple but an interesting one still ^^

And one day, my manager (from national choir) called me.. only then that i notice that it’s been quite long that i’ve skipped choir.. (near to 2 months i suppose?!)
Well, due to tests, assignments, quizzes and followed by finals.. what to do.. hectic schedule i had.. cant screwed up all coz of choir.. i’m not that great yet.. LOL

Holiday started, and of coz same goes to my singing activities.. every tues n fri nite, same time, same place.. rehearsals still going on as usual. And i come back juz in the right time! Performances are coming up soon again~ This is what i like most about national choir, get to perform at lotsa places.. and another classical concert where we work hand in hand with the NSO (National Symphony Orchestra) is on again.. =p

HOLIDAY.. this holiday is really a good break for me.. juz stuck in front of my pc.. Anime marathon everyday. ^^ get to finish off my naruto, started with bleach till 105 episodes so far, finished prison break season1 (finally.. N its damn cool.. cant wait to get from my friend season 2!), started dead note even.. woohoo..

and above all that, get to meet up my tuition teacher.. at last.. after so many years.. my account teacher.. hehe.. really thx to her that i get an A1 for SPM bek then.. coz as i’m in science class, we’re allowed to take up that subj but no classes were conducted for science class students for extra subjects we took.. (who cares.. it’s not like i sit in class queitly and attented every of them.. hahhahhaha.. i used to skipped most of them (legally of coz.. i got my way.. muahhaha *evil* and d headmistress was very close to me *wink* except for those conducted by chinese teachers..)

Anyway, class going to start next week.. time juz fly pass huh.. well, i guess 3 weeks is juz nice for a gud rest! *peace* ^^y

For the past few weeks of examination u all helped a lot~! Juz came back after sitting for Properties of Matters paper.. Lucky me that most of the explanation questions i ran through quite a lot of times.. or else… confirm gg.. *whew..

I suckz badly at this subject.. my killer subject.. need to memorize 60+ equations, a subject that’s combination of physical and organic chemistry and also related to physics at the same time.. =="  coursework for this subject is 30% overall, and i scored half of it ONLY.. which means it’s very bad.. ><

I really wanna thanks to our study group members - Cody, Ruxuan, Brinda, May Lee, Enson and Hun Wei.. Lay Koon also, who join us ones in a while.. =p u guys rock~!
thanks for teaching me, going mad along with me etc etc.. arigatou gozaimasu!

Although i can’t say that i did well either.. but at least wont fail i think.. *hopefully
kinda relieve that it had passed.. tqtqtqtq~~! For those who didnt did well, dun be too upset.. coz mayb today is juz not your day.. well.. heck it.. 3 down.. 2 to go!!

again.. THANKS!!! Ganbatte kudasai!!!!!

The globe seems to spin extra fast this week.. 1 week of study leave just fly past.. =="

Well, this is the first time i enjoyed my study week i can say.. not that i played and not study (mad a?? i don’t wanna fail..).. it’s because i spent a lot of time studying and revising with my fellow friends! Our gang got brinda,may lee, ruxuan, cody, enson, hun wei and me..

Our fixed mad schedule for the whole week is like that.. 2-7pm study in UTAR library, 2-7am in S-block 24hrs study room.. lol.. people might think that we’re out of our minds.. well, at least i enjoyed every single minute.. hahhahha.. Mainly because we crack lotsa stupid jokes as well.. really stupid ones~ but still make sense.. ^o^
*ahem ahem elephantises.. cherry tomatoes.. double happiness.. gay.. bapak.. failed and perfect ah gua.. bulatan pahang.. cacat.. ==" swt.. (sry.. cant explain further.. haha.. sensored to our study gang.. =p

Moreover, i can ask questions when i encounter problems.. hehe.. *thx a lot
That’s the main advantage of having a study group.. *wink

Other than that, i think we made that study room our picnic spot too.. da bao nasi lemak, french fries, teh-o ais limau, teh-o laici, laici susu, even McD oso.. hahhahhah..

hmm.. our study group went to other interesting places to study either.. let me give you examples of spots so that anyone of you if interested could refer to.. hahhahhah..

1. mamak (isnt it too noisy?! cacat)

2.starbucks (a little too expensive though.. so it’s true that you have to pay for what you really want.. hahhahhah)

3.McD (went to Melati Utama McD.. how unlucky.. on the same day, they got robbed around 8.30pm.. where 3 malay guys with helmet entered with long parang.. swt.. after that we leave.. glad that the robbers juz want cash..no one was injured.. *brin, too bad you missed the scene.. who ask you to ponteng study session.. wahaha..)

Later i’m sitting for the 1st paper.. English for Science (sounds like a stupid subject right?! hmm.. not easy to score though.. need to know how to write reports [accident report, progress report, field trip report]) Anyway, my english is kinda poor i would say (cacat).. so.. i find it difficult.. But this is the only paper that is nothing to study.. juz need to know the format of the reports and how to explain pie and bar charts, do comparison etc..

After EfS go to library again.. continue my never ending revision.. past year questions also haven’t finish.. just started for 2 subjects.. kla.. better stop here and get some sleep first.. =p

p/s GOOD LUCK GANG~